About a year ago I got into an accident. This one incident had a great impact on me and so I wanted to share my experiences and reflections. Here’s what I wrote about it at that time.
Last Saturday (April 26th, 2014) I was involved in a terrible car crash. It was the kind of car crash that you see in the movies or on the news and don’t think would happen to you. It has been one of the most intense experiences of my life and I wanted to share it and my feelings and reflections on it in the hope that this will help others in their journey toward Allah on this earth.
I was driving down Springvale road, coming back from the Glen Waverley shopping centre, with my father, 2 year old son and my grandmother. It had been raining a little. My mind was on the fact that I needed to finish my laundry, clean the fridge, do all these household chores…
Then I saw the bus in front of me had stopped. I braked, but we didn’t stop. I pushed the brakes harder, I could hear my father shouting my name, but the car kept going (I later found out we had skidded on the wet road). I remember seeing the back of the bus in front of me, screaming because there was nothing I could do and then that awful crashing sound as my car made impact with the bus.
Alhamdulillah the airbags went off immediately, my son Ibraheem started screaming and I remember thinking in my dazed state “Alhamdulillah… I’m alive!”. Not so much because I love life but because I don’t think I’ve done enough to meet my Lord in the best way yet.
I saw my grandmother had fallen and blood was gushing out of her face. She was stuck at the back between my seat and hers. Oh the guilt and panic when I saw her there and realised she had not been wearing her seatbelt. She is 80 and has osteoporosis. I called 000 and then got out of the car. I took Ibraheem, who was still screaming, from Daddy who had taken him out of his car seat and tried to calm him down. I was just standing there with Ibraheem looking at the crash, at how the front of my car was a smashed, crumpled mess and for some reason Surah Asr came to my mind:
إِنَّ الْإِنسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ
إِلَّا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ
“By the time. Verily mankind is in LOSS. Except those who BELIEVE, and DO righteous good deeds and recommend one another to the TRUTH and recommend one another to PATIENCE.” [Surah Asr]
I started shaking and the tears came streaming down my cheeks, probably from shock but also with the realisation that Allah (swt) had given me another chance! Another opportunity to make better use of the precious resource of time, that we take so much for granted before my inevitable meeting with Him. Another chance at trying not be one of the ‘losers’ mentioned in Surah Asr, to be one of those who really truly BELIEVE, who do good purely for His Sake, and help others too by recommending truth and patience.
I thank Allah for making the verses of the Quran come alive in my heart at that difficult moment (May Allah (swt) bless the many Quran teachers I have had through out my life) and I want to keep that feeling of urgency with me that I felt at the crash site. The feeling of I MUST keep striving to do what I can to please Allah (swt) and stay away from what He is displeased with because I do not know when I will die…
Alhamdulillah as I write this my grandmother is recovering from surgery and the rest of us who were in the car crash are all physically ok. For me, I’m sure the mental scars will remain a little longer though I will fight that and Inshallah not let it overpower me. This whole incident was a powerful reminder for me of how suddenly our lives can end. For most of us (myself included) we get so caught up in our day-to-day lives working hard for success in this life, that we often forget to work for our Ultimate Success in the next life. Every single one of us has things we would like to improve about ourselves, how we worship Allah (swt) and how we live. I make dua that Allah (swt) helps us all to make those changes in ourselves and that He helps us make the best use of the time we have, before we are called back to Him. Ameen.